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Only the Shadow Knows

11/21/2015

 
The Shadow Self is an aspect of the self that is carefully hidden away and personifies everything that we refuse to acknowledge about ourselves.  Carl Jung identified it as the ‘unknown dark side of the personality which the conscious ego does not identify in itself’.  I believe that our shadow material is the collective of all of our wound imprinting. The unconscious rejection of this aspect of the self creates a fundamental ‘split’ that we are always defending against. Healing this 'split' is key to achieving inner peace and personal freedom.

Our social conditioning has taught us that the best way to heal this ‘split’ is to rely primarily on those individuals we form relationships with to meet our emotional needs and make us feel better about ourselves. This conditioning is the ‘springboard’ that propels us into forming co-dependent relationships throughout the course of our lifetime. The very nature of co-dependency ends up reinforcing the wall or façade that we’ve created that guards us against acknowledging, embracing, and integrating our shadow material. Because we are now completely reliant on the other to make us feel good about ourselves; we can’t risk the possibility that they will get a peek beyond the wall that we’ve created that so carefully guards against everything we judge about ourselves. The unconscious belief is that if we allow the façade to drop; then those whose opinions matter so much to us will be repulsed by what they see. And that is why most of our energies are spent every day ensuring that our shadows will never be exposed to the light of day for fear of being abandoned by those we love.

One of the central themes in the healing I facilitate for my clients is to acknowledge our shadow self and to understand that the primary tension that we carry within us at all times is the denial and rejection of this shadow aspect in an unconscious attempt to minimize loss.  The key to healing everything is to begin to accept, embrace and integrate all those aspects of us that we despise and loathe and keep carefully hidden away. In order to heal beyond ‘the split’ towards wholeness, happiness, and well-being, it is imperative that we plumb these depths. There are no detours on the journey to inner peace and freedom.

Our outer world is a continuous reflection of what we believe to be true about ourselves. If we deeply desire to be in a loving relationship with another then we must first learn how to be in a loving relationship with ourselves. In order to do this, we must first begin to immerse ourselves in those shadow aspects which we’ve kept carefully hidden from ourselves and others. This is the journey to self-love and self-acceptance; without which we will never have the capacity to truly love another:
 
THE   SHADOW   SELF
 
“ ... For fear threatens the self-image you have so
carefully molded
 
And it threatens the sexual role you have
chosen
 
And you dread shame or loss of control
 
And in relationships you vacillate between
fears of too much closeness or not enough
 
And you fear the suffering that others can inflict:
criticism and rejection, humiliation and invasion
 
And vulnerable and insecure, you fear the
aggravation of opening old wounds
 
And the sense of being overwhelmed by facets
of yourself which have been condemned in the
past, even by yourself as well as others
 
And your greatest fears may be threats to your
physical body or to your identity
 
And so you cling to the familiar parental voices
within
 
Lest you re-experience the traumas of
childhood which could plunge you headlong
into the black abyss of terror; the world of the
frightened, rejected child...abandoned and
alone...
 
And some inner guardian ardently defends the
gate that seals off the pain and anxiety of old
wounds
 
When shadows play at the edge of your mind...
 
Become your shadow-self
 
Woo the distrustful child out of the darkness
and back to life
 
For shadows tell us what we fear
 
And draw smudged pictures of dreads we are
afraid to feel
 
Penetrate them
 
Face them and you will balance your inner self
and the persona you present to the outside
world: the mask
 
For within those smoky depths are stored
nightmares: the worst images we have of
ourselves
 
Shadows are places of mysterious fears
 
There is no sun there
 
And they represent the lowest point; the nadir
of our existence where ghastly forms loom and
lurk in their dark corners, writhing and draping
veils over the light of our days...
 
 
For the shadow is the secret arena of the inner
self
 
And no one outside of ourselves can see it
 
And when we dare to enter therein, we
disappear
 
And all of our energies are directed inward
towards the dark unconscious
 
For its locked-up material must be brought into
the conscious mind if you are ever to feel
complete and whole and at peace
 
Still, some choose to live in those shadowy
worlds where dreams, nightmares and realities
are forever confused...
 
Constantly moving in and out of each other
 
So decisions are impossible to make
 
And facts are hopelessly distorted by
propaganda or fears
 
And outward lives reflect the pathetic inner
struggle
 
As the confused one flits around endlessly in
pointless circles
 
From task to task
 
From opinion to empty opinion
 
And he chatters on, pouring out streams of
words with no substance
 
Without purpose
 
Without direction
 
Without hope
 
And in encountering your shadow-self, you
may wonder how you can live with the
discovery of your own ugliness and potential
evil
 
For you will glimpse terrifying energies within,
gaining pleasure from revenge or planning the
downfall of those who have hurt you
 
And you may even uncover a masochistic
craving for physical or emotional self-abuse
 
For discovering inner demons is a terrible blow
to your self-esteem
 
Know that the first experience of bringing those
bad energies out is always the worst
 
But once out of darkness, they lose power
and evaporate in the light
 
 
Learn to trust the beauty within, while
tolerating your darker side
 
 
For it is a paradox that the process of spiritual
growth involves lessening your attachment to
your ideal images of self and others and
embracing instead your lowest, most vile self
 
And if at first you feel threatened or repulsed
by your hidden facets
 
Know that you can only discover the buried
treasure within by being willing to embrace the
distrustful, uncooperative child
 
Love and understanding will eventually open
the lock
 
See the most evil parts of yourself as the
methods of survival for a terrified child whose
needs have been distorted by years of
emotional neglect and abuse
 
Seek out the child’s needs
 
Meet those needs and soothe his fears
 
Confront him, touch him
 
Tell him you are a friend from his future
 
And that you understand his pain
 
And you will create for yourself the nurturing
conditions that lead to transformation
 
Then open the channel of healing love and
compassion for others
 
For only then will the twisted, unredeemed
facets of yourself and the evil hiding within, be
countered and melted by warm feelings
 
Then you will at last feel compassion for
yourself..."
 
 
 
Zambucka, Kristin. (1999). The Classic Trilogy, Ano ‘Ano: The Seed, The Mana Keepers, The Fire Lily.
Honolulu, Hawaii: Mutual Publishing.  Pg. 119-124.



The Dualistic Paradigm

11/1/2015

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A paradigm is a framework which contains widely accepted beliefs and perceptions about reality. Participation in any paradigm by the collective mainstream is happening at an unconscious level as a result of chronic conditioning that begins from the moment we are born. The Dualistic Paradigm is the current collective framework that almost every sentient being on this planet participates in unconsciously every day.

Duality occurs when it is perceived that two aspects of something are separate from, and in opposition to, each other. All of our schemas from the moment of birth have developed around the conditioning of this binary state of mutual exclusion. It informs all of our perceptions and belief systems about ourselves and our environment and because these beliefs inform our expectations; our external world and everyone who inhabits it, continues to reflect back to us that we are separate from, and in opposition to, everything that exists outside of us.

Thousands of years ago, earth-centered cultures lived in harmony with the natural world because their inherent cosmologies and subsequent creation stories identified that they were an integral part of their environment; no greater and no less than a rock, a tree, a mountain, a bird, a deer or a spider. Everything they did, including relationships, ceremonies, government and education reflected this central theme. As a result, concepts such as balance, integrity, respect, reverence, and gratitude were easily embodied and as natural as breathing. Inclusion rather than exclusion was a way of being that permeated the individual on a cellular level and informed all behaviors, relationship dynamics and one’s overall quality of life that was always imbued with a sense of purpose and belonging.

Historians and philosophers believe that dualism originated only a few centuries ago through the Cartesian, philosophical and Newtonian, scientific view of the Universe and that prior to the cosmologies that developed from these mechanistic worldviews, we experienced 'thinking' and 'being' as identical. Descartes's famous quote, cogito ergo sum, 'I think therefore I am', identifies the fundamental split between consciousness that thinks and consciousness that exists.  Within such a paradigm, we, as a species, have developed the ideology that mind and cognition are self-evident of our superiority to all other life forms on this planet and that those life forms exist solely for the purpose of sustaining us on a physical, emotional, and spiritual level. These mechanistic and dualistic cosmologies have led to the exaltation of the human and our increasing alienation from the natural world which continues to influence our need to have dominion over it by excavating, controlling, manipulating, and exhausting all of our natural resources.  What has now become self-evident is that our continued participation in, and conformation to, the Dualistic Paradigm propels us closer towards self-destruction. 

Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Heaven/Hell, Masculine/Feminine, Love/Hate, Pass/Fail, True/False, Black/White, Life/Death, Reward/Punishment,  Internal/External, Sane/Insane, Yesterday/Tomorrow, You/Me and Light/Dark are just some of the dualities that reflect our participation in this binary state of mutual exclusion.  Competition, dogma, opposition, poverty, exclusion, control, disparity, identity, hierarchy, conflict, manipulation, violence, and excess are all expressions of the Dualistic Paradigm and inform all of the pain, suffering, and separation we perpetuate and experience in ourselves, our loved ones, our communities and our countries.

Separation is the seed of all suffering and sets us up to participate in, and be conditioned by, the Dualistic Paradigm or, as I like to call it, The Control Drama. This existential sense of being separate from everything that we perceive exists outside of us is always being informed by our awareness that our time in this body and on this planet is finite. We are the only organisms that have this awareness and it sets us up to focus primarily on either the past that no longer exists or the future that hasn’t happened yet. Without this awareness there would be no such thing as emotional instability or mental illness because all of the distortions we experience that inform these various expressions, including anxiety and depression, come from our unconscious attempts to mitigate loss by grasping at and holding tightly to whatever and whomever makes us feel safe and secure. All of our wounding and trauma is perpetuated by others as we grow from infancy through vulnerable and critical stages of development in environments that reflect the chronic fear that stems from these survival issues. As a result, our schemas develop around unconscious beliefs that include the need to control or be controlled in order to feel safe and secure.

Throughout history, man-made dogma has been expressed through all organized religions as a means of controlling large populations of people through fear and threats of punishment in the after-life in the event that we are unable to conform to the current model of man-made, moral or ethical codes. Those of us who are compliant are promised unimaginable rewards. Within the Dualistic Paradigm these different outcomes of reward and punishment are usually experienced as love and acceptance or judgment and rejection while embodied, and referred to as some version of heaven and hell in the after-life once we've shed our body. Consequently, conformity would seem to be the key to survival while spontaneity appears to be a dangerous course of action.

As a child and family therapist, I am always aware of how this deeply internalized paradigm manifests within the systems that have been put in place to address the mental, emotional and physical needs of the individual navigating every stage of development throughout the span of a lifetime. I notice it mostly because they don’t appear to be particularly effective if the individual is not conforming to an increasingly narrow bandwidth of what would meet the current criteria of ‘acceptable’ or ‘normal’.  Remember, the Dualistic Paradigm is by its very nature exclusive so if you don’t conform then the reflexive response is a collective projection identifying that you suffer from either immoral, criminal or pathological tendencies. Once that happens there is usually an attempt to restrain the individual either chemically with medication or physically with incarceration. This would explain why 49 million Americans are currently taking psychiatric medication and why the United States now has incarcerated 2.2 million of its citizens; a 500% increase over the past 30 years.

The most obvious example of this conditioning in action can be seen in the experiences of our children from pre-k through high school attempting to navigate the current academic system.  What I find most intriguing is that as the child develops, he or she begins to model the existential angst that comes from their inability to conform to the dualistic conditioning inherent in this particular system. It begins with emerging adolescence and the dawn of meta-cognition when the individual begins to experience conformity as an equivalent to death.  Without realizing it, they are defending their right to exist beyond the boundaries and confinement of the Dualistic Paradigm that projects onto them that their inability to conform is evidence of some inherent flaw that will limit their ability to be successful in getting their needs met throughout the course of their lifetime.

The reason why I enjoy a great deal of success working with this demographic is because I understand what’s occurring in their environments that is negating them and challenging their ability to be in integrity with themselves in response to the distorted messages and unrealistic expectations being projected onto them daily by administrators, teachers and parents. It’s amazing to experience the deep sighs of relief and increased engagement in response to having reflected back to them that there’s nothing wrong with them, that they’re not freaks, and they just need to learn how to successfully navigate their environments in a way that does not have them feeling diminished or negated. Adolescence trying to function within the Dualistic Paradigm is a perfect storm which is why this developmental stage is primarily defined by drama and crisis. If we, as adults, were able to recognize the degree to which we’ve conformed to our own conditioning we would be much better equipped to parent, teach, and mentor them. Our teenagers are our ‘truth tellers’ and we have much to learn from them if we could only allow ourselves to listen and accept them without feeling the need to defend our position. More on this subject will be explored in the article “Parenting the Adolescent”.

The good news is that it appears as if a much more holistic paradigm of consciousness has begun to emerge and that, once again, the scientific model of the time is reflecting these new beliefs and shifting paradigms. Quantum Physics is beginning to replace the mechanistic view of Newtonian Physics and is teaching us with every new discovery that we are intimately interconnected with our environment and everything that inhabits it which also includes the understanding that we can change what is outside of us by simply changing ourselves.  Much of this awareness is an integral part of what has guided my own healing process as well as informed the healing that I am able to facilitate for my clients. In order to be balanced, whole and healthy one must move beyond the conditioning that has taught us that we are separate and apart from anything that we perceive exists outside of us.  As long as we are oriented to looking outside of ourselves in order to identify what and who in our environment is causing us pain; we will always be trying to manipulate and control our environment in an attempt to minimize our suffering.  In order to move beyond this dualistic orientation that has us stuck in the identity of victimhood, we must be able to embrace inclusion; beginning with ourselves. It is critical that our attention be directed primarily inward towards the self to heal whatever judgements that are being defended that reinforce the internal ‘splits’ and subsequent fear and anxiety that informs all of our personal and professional relationships including our relationship with the self.

If more of us were to engage in a self-exhaustive process of healing the imprinting and subsequent ‘splits’ that we hold deeply at the cellular level and defend daily; then we would be able to move beyond the fear-based expressions of the Dualistic Paradigm. Competition, opposition, exclusion, control, disparity, conflict, manipulation, violence, and excess would then be replaced with cooperation, inclusion, balance, acceptance, integrity, respect, reverence, love and gratitude.  If we were able to heal ourselves at the cellular level, our external world would then begin to reflect back to us this internal paradigm shift resulting in all of our perceptions, behaviors, relationship dynamics, and quality of life being imbued with a renewed sense of balance, purpose and belonging.
 

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    Kate O'Connell is a licensed Child and Family Therapist with a private practice in Charlottesville, Virginia addressing the therapeutic needs of children, adults, adolescents, couples and families. Her extensive training in Intensive In-Home Services,  Addiction, Family Systems Therapy and Energy Medicine enables her to facilitate positive outcomes for her clients dealing with a variety of emotional and mental health issues.

    



    

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